why guys?tell me why....

why i had done to u guys, what did i do wrong to deserve this feeling of emptyness in my heart? i always kept telling to myself that i would be better without u guys. i always believe there are someone among u guys would be my true love and i believe that i would spent my whole life with one of u guys someday. but...here's the thing, why people kept thinking that i need boys all the time? i mean..doesnt mean that i dont have a boyfriend my life is empty n pathetic..NO,its not..i choose not to have u guys to entering my life for a moment because i always end-ups with a loser,a douche-bag and totally stupid people..i love u guys,dont get me wrong, i love waking up every morning and received a text saying 'Good morning sayang, i hope u'll have a blast today, ;)',every little things u guys did,the roses,the hugs n kisses and even the shoulder to cry on. i love 'em..but don't falling in love with me without knowing who i am,and don't try to change who i am..i will change for u guys one day..u guys just have to trust and support me..why u guys kept changing ur attitude? why always ends up with arguements? why we always ends up with break-ups and a lot of crying? and why we ends up with removing each other's facebook,deleting our memories, deleting the old text and even throwing out our gifts for each other..why we ends up with heart-broken feeling n that feelings would remain the same in even 10 years..so,i suggest that,dont fall in love in me to quick...and i am a very complicated,non-ordinary,problematic person..u just have to deal with it..when i say NO,its means maybe..and if i said YES..it might be no...it's confusing...but we call it LOVE.